The Bible is described as the Living Word , and you are in the middle of your story, which is part of such a bigger plan, you'll see!
Your story is not over, and I would be honored to partner with you to help you navigate this path, on this stretch of your journey, to choose wellness, restoration, & redemption, to choose to get better, not bitter over the fiery trials you may have walked through...
Weapons WILL be formed against you, but they WILL not Prosper!
And all of us have been mistreated & misunderstood at some point or another, and the effects of those experiences can be long lasting. If not dealt with, those experiences create a pattern of reactivity in which we keep doing the same thing, over and over...
These experiences usually leave us with maladaptive belief systems that block a healthy relationship with God, Self, or Others.
We generally blame ourselves, affecting our relationship with self
Or
Blame God, affecting our relationship with Him.
Or
Blame others, creating a long string of broken or unhealthy relationships..
And MANY women that I work with, turn to food, or alcohol to soothe, numb, to meet the emptiness that the relationships are NOT filling.
Sound Familiar?
Sister, You are NOT ALONE!
Maybe you experienced trauma, betrayal, & rejection and though you just knew this would never happen to us- It did. Shattered hopes and dreams crash to the ground.
We believe the lies of the enemy,
"You are not loveable",
"You are not worth it",
"You are not good enough"..
And after believing those lies for so long, we don't even know they are lies, it feels so true...
As Christians we read the Bible wanting so desperately to believe in our hearts what we hear about God, that we are
Loved. Chosen. Valued.
But instead, we feel empty.
We anesthetize the pain with overworking, over-achieving, People -Pleasing, scrolling, shopping, eating, or getting lost in romance novels.
We all have a "drug of choice" if we are feeling the emptiness that God wants to fill..
Because, if we do not fill up on the love of God, knowing our Identity and Value in Him, expressed in healthy relationships,
We will do something, to fill that hole in our soul- we may even make idols out of relationships, titles, the roles we play.
We go to church or work, serve, give, play all the parts, and yet we feel like an imposter along the way...
If this is you, I see you, & I know that pain.
By the grace of God, I found my way into recovery early in life, & have had to learn who was , fight shame by fighting lies with truth, unlearn many things, grieve my many losses, & to develop new ways of thinking, feeling, and doing things.
It has been the most challenging & beneficial work of my life, and just when I think I have it figured out, there's a new challenge & new lesson!
I have been playing Whack-A-Mole since I was a teenager with compulsive behaviors to deal with that emptiness, overcoming trauma, pride, betrayal, substances, and many other things.
However, the gift of recovery, achieved only by the gift of desperation, and the power of 12 step recovery, and the movement of God in those meetings, and the people I have found along the way, I am a breathing, walking, talking, testimony that!
If you are struggling in your relationship with God-
You are not alone.
I have coached many women who are angry with God for the ways in which life has turned out. Many have questioned
"Why me",
"Why this',
"Haven't you taken enough from me",
or "Where are you"!
There is NO shame if you find yourself in this place with your faith. And if you would like to work through some of these questions, I am here to help!
